108: Self Assessment

The Tomlinson reading and this assignment provided me with a good opportunity to reflect and realize that, even when it seems like progress is slow going, I definitely have shown improvement this year. I have such a long way to go still before I would consider myself truly 'skilled' in any of my areas for growth, however, I know that I am making progress and will continue to make progress based on the reflection I've done.

There was one specific quote that really jumped out at me regarding differentiation "Differentiated teaching is responsive teaching. It stems from a teacher's solid (and growing) understanding of how teaching and learning occur and it responds to varied learners' needs for more structure or more independence, more practice or greater challenge, a more active or less active approach to learning and so on." It is this particular facet of differentiation-- how it is responsive, changes, etc that scares me to some degree. As I become more and more comfortable with teaching, as presenting the material becomes more routine and streamlined, I start to think of how, in some ways, next year will probably (hopefully?) feel easier. I will have my materials, know what is reasonable to expect from first graders etc. But at the same time, each year of teaching means completely starting fresh in terms of differentiation. Every child will have different needs.

All of this, plus Christmas break and being away from teaching, gave me some time to think about ways to really target kids. I am almost embarrassed to admit that I didn't realize that three of my 'higher' students had serious deficiencies in one specific area until December. One student is in my morning class, the other two in my afternoon class, and they are all at slightly different places in all of it. This week I have started a whole new course of action with them- having them bring home extra work, spending more time with them during school and after to work on this one specific need. Still, I don't want the same thing to happen next year-- I'd really like to assess needs better (or rather, make sure I am addressing the whole range of academic needs, not just comp and decoding struggles etc) so that I can be better differentiating for all of my students, not just my extremely high or extremely low ones.

I think my current level of understanding, in general, varies widely in terms of the TPEs we have been working on. I feel the weakest on Instructional Planning-- while I generally have weekly plans done ahead of time now, and I always do what I intend to in the time that I intend to use, I still feel like I'm not maximizing the time that I have with my students necessarily, nor am I pushing for their participation as much as I should be. I think there are still a few students, in both classes but moreso in my morning class, who are not getting nearly as much out of class as they should be. That comes down to my teaching, and my not reaching them as much as I should be. Also, this to some degree ties in with investment. While my middle-to-high students are VERY interested in making it to Level 16 on DRA, my lower students can still sometimes come off as ambivalent. It's often the higher kids trying to motivate the lower ones as opposed to the lower ones really giving their best effort independently.

Somewhere that I think I have improved on the Mid-Year Review is Creating and Maintaining Effective Environments for Student Learning. Its been a strange process of even figuring out the most effective ways to use a classroom and the space I have, and keeping it organized in a way that makes sense to both my students and myself. I want them to have ownership over the space, and I think I do still have a ways to go in that (i.e. making sure a lot of their work is up on the walls, etc).

In summary, I think the areas that I am doing the best at are differentiating for my higher students (finding ways to challenge them, making their work appropraite to their level), specifically with my afternoon class; Instructional Time and making content accessible to my ELLs (though I am definitely still working on this). In terms of Instructional Time, this is where I have seen the greatest improvement in my skills as a teacher. Though I still have a good ways to grow in this regard, I have gotten significantly better at sticking to our daily schedule, following the 10-2 rule, using up extra time in effective ways (with activities that we are able to do whole class, or that students are able to do independently or with a partner, etc). I feel like my use of instructional time is almost completely different than the first month of school, where I was just looking for things to do to fill the time or stretching activities longer than they needed to be. Now, class is a lot more fast-paced and I hope this continues. I also think that I have majorly grown in terms of classroom management and I am so happy with how things have changed in that regard. I totally attribute that success to my work with Peggy, Melissa, etc, and being taped, watching the video and reflecting on that.

I am looking forward to more growth in terms of reaching the needs of all of my students. I often reflect on how much better things go with my afternoon class, and their scores on assessments always show that. The mood is more fun and engaged, the students are more interested, etc. I feel like their energy (which was overwhelming at the beginning of the year) has been channeled into a love of reading and that is so rewarding to see. Making that happen for my morning class is something I'm really going to push hard for in the next few months. They are simply not as engaged, not as invested, etc despite being very well-behaved. They have taught me a good lesson that classroom management on its own is not enough, and I need to push them more.

I still think I have a long way to go on my UbD instruction as well. This particular unit is a major challenge for more, so I'm trying to push through it (as we had it 'planned') for the next week or so before I meet with the other first grade teacher and we make any changes we need to. Overall though, I'm not sure that my UbD instruction teachers for 'deeper understanding' quite enough, and I plan to adhere much more closely to Jay McTighe's vision of what UbD should look like, and how to combine it with DI in our next unit.

Reflecting back on my Continuum of Teacher Development, two things stand out. First, I misjudged my skills after the summer institute. While those may have held true for the grade level that I had taught over the summer, they did not necessarily hold for first grade. The most obvious spot where I did this was in 'Determining Student progress toward achieving essential outcomes'. I placed myself in the emerging category, and looking back, I was definitely in Beginning. I'm just NOW getting into emerging. Better communicating the standards and learning objectives was my professional development New Years resolution, and something I am determined to do better at in 2009.

Secondly, I think I am still, for the most part, still in the Emerging/Applying categories overall. Looking at that is a bit frustrating; I now realize that teaching is a huge learning curve and I have such a long way to go. I really want to be in the Innovating category for the sake of my students, and it is hard to see myself still struggling in certain aspects of teaching. That said, I am seeing lots of progress and I know I will get there, if I really focus on the specific needs that I have. Something that I began doing in the middle of last semester, and plan to continue doing this year is to focus on one personal goal per week. One week, that goal was differentiating my phonics instruction for my higher student. Another week, it was pushing for better understanding of spelling rules and patterns, etc. I plan to keep doing this, since I found it, in conjunction with tying it to the seminars and my one-on-ones with Peggy, forced me to move forward on small aspects that are part of the larger picture in terms of the continuum. Tying my goals more closely to the rubric will hopefully help me make progress in the specific areas that most need it during the second half of the year.